• Infertility,  Life Updates,  Miscarriage

    On Taking A Break

    It sucks. Don’t get me wrong, it’s been nice to not worry about tracking my cycle or symptom spotting. But more than anything, I want to be pregnant again. Or maybe it’s that I wish I was still pregnant. Because I know that if I were to see those two lines again now, I would be so happy. I might even be able to celebrate. But then there’s the waiting. Waiting for the blood work results. And the next blood work results… And if everything is good with that, then there’s more waiting. Waiting for the first ultrasound. Holding my breath while they take measurements and look for a heartbeat……

  • Infertility

    Infertility Is Not Your Fault

    In one of my last posts, I wrote about letting go of the guilt that surrounds infertility. This post is somewhat along the same lines. This week I had an ovarian cyst rupture. It was ridiculously painful, and my poor husband was terrified. It had been nine years since that had last happened, so I forgot how bad it could be. After I realized what was happening, I managed the pain as I’ve learned to do, and made an appointment to be sure everything was okay. By the time I went in for my ultrasound the next day, the pain had greatly subsided. The ultrasound tech confirmed what had happened…

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    4 Ways to Fight Infertility Jealousy

    Even before I was diagnosed with PCOS, I had a major problem with jealousy. I knew it would be difficult for me to get pregnant, and being a mom was the ultimate goal for me. So any time someone else would get pregnant easily and/or accidentally, I would completely lose my mind and spend days in a jealous rage. It wasn’t pretty. While I still have jealous thoughts from time to time, I have learned to identify it and move past it. The following post contains a few things that I’ve found to be helpful in dealing with jealousy. 1. Realize that there are more emotions hiding under the jealousy.…