• Fertility Products and Resources

    Ovulation Double Check by MFB Fertility

    I won an awesome giveaway from MFB Fertility during National Infertility Awareness Week, and I wanted to share a bit about the amazing, revolutionary product I received! This post is not sponsored. If you have PCOS, then you might know that traditional ovulation tests (OPKs) aren’t always reliable. I’ve not used OPKs in years, but when I did, they never worked for me. This is because women with PCOS often have high LH (the hormone that is measured by an OPK), without ovulation actually happening. This can be very confusing and frustrating when you’re TTC, especially if you have long cycles. That’s why I’m so glad that there’s a product…

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  • Infertility,  Life Updates,  Miscarriage

    On Taking A Break

    It sucks. Don’t get me wrong, it’s been nice to not worry about tracking my cycle or symptom spotting. But more than anything, I want to be pregnant again. Or maybe it’s that I wish I was still pregnant. Because I know that if I were to see those two lines again now, I would be so happy. I might even be able to celebrate. But then there’s the waiting. Waiting for the blood work results. And the next blood work results… And if everything is good with that, then there’s more waiting. Waiting for the first ultrasound. Holding my breath while they take measurements and look for a heartbeat……

  • Life Updates,  Pregnancy

    Pregnancy Update: Weeks 5-6

    I’ve been finishing up the semester of school and working my way through finals, so it’s been awhile since I’ve updated. I just turned into my 7th week yesterday, so I figured that now would be a good time to talk symptoms and other things before I forget. I’ll try to continue these updates weekly if I can, but for this post it’ll mostly just be catching up. So, where did I leave off? In my last post I shared about my confirmation appointment and my blood work results. Since then, nothing new has really happened, and I’ve just been counting down the days until the ultrasound. It’s really gone…

  • Life Updates,  Pregnancy

    Pregnant Again.

    There are so many couples who go years without ever seeing those two lines. There are so many couple who go years without answers. So many years of trial and error. Years of one failed treatment after another. We who have walked these roads have such an amazing community. There have been many cycles where the lovely people I met through the infertility community have kept me sane and encouraged me. But what happens when one of us finally cross over to the other side? When we finally get our miracle? For the most part, the infertility community is very supportive of those who are able to beat infertility. But…

  • Miscarriage,  Pregnancy

    Clarity About March

    If you’re a new reader, you might not know what happened in March. I’ve linked the posts below, but I’ll also be giving a brief rundown of the events. Posts About March 2017 Ovulation Two Week Wait BFP Is It A Chemical Pregnancy? What happened in March? March 30, 2017 was the first time I saw those two little lines. I did a cute little announcement to let my husband know that I was pregnant, and we celebrated! Unfortunately, our joy was short lived, because two days later I got several negative pregnancy tests. That was pretty devastating, but the events that followed were especially torturous. I made an appointment…

  • Life Updates,  Miscarriage,  Pregnancy

    I thought it was over…and now it is. (Second Pregnancy/Loss)

    This is the story of what happened during the September cycle. I first suspected that I ovulated around September 12th. My cervical fluid was fertile, then dried up–and once that happened, my boobs began to hurt. I had an appointment ten days later, and told my doctor what I was experiencing. I was still having signs of high progesterone, so she ordered a blood test to see if it could confirm ovulation. The test came back at 19.2, which was the confirmation I was hoping for! I took many pregnancy tests, and they were all negative. I started having some issues with sciatica, which I deal with chronically. I went…

  • Faith,  Infertility

    The Lies That Infertility Tells

    The other night was a hard one. It was one of those instances where something sets you off, and a storm of negativity and hopelessness follows. With infertility comes so many strong emotions–uncontrollable at times. I’m sure someone can relate to not only having these negative emotions and all the hopeless thoughts that they bring, but also to feeling guilty and helpless to stop the feelings. In the middle of my breakdown, many lies entered my thoughts–and I knew that they were lies. But even though I knew it, I had a hard time remembering the truth. You see, just identifying the thoughts as lies is not enough. Those lies…

  • Infertility

    Infertility Is Not Your Fault

    In one of my last posts, I wrote about letting go of the guilt that surrounds infertility. This post is somewhat along the same lines. This week I had an ovarian cyst rupture. It was ridiculously painful, and my poor husband was terrified. It had been nine years since that had last happened, so I forgot how bad it could be. After I realized what was happening, I managed the pain as I’ve learned to do, and made an appointment to be sure everything was okay. By the time I went in for my ultrasound the next day, the pain had greatly subsided. The ultrasound tech confirmed what had happened…

  • Life Updates,  Pregnancy

    I Have No Self-Control (I’m Pregnant!)

    Yesterday I wrote about my two week wait symptoms, and said that I would be testing at 14DPO. Well, it’s 12DPO today…and I tested. And. it. was. POSITIVE!!!!!!!!!!! What???? What?!!! WHAT! That’s literally all I’ve been able to say today. That, and “What the heck” and “I can’t believe it”. Oh my goodness, I really can’t believe it. But it’s there. It doesn’t even seem real. It’s such a weird feeling, and I just can’t believe that it finally happened! I want to document this while it’s still fresh in my mind. So, here’s the story of me finding out that I am PREGNANT! My husband had to run down…

  • Fertility Products and Resources,  Infertility,  PCOS

    Cycle Update: What Supplements I’m Using For PCOS

    First of all, I’d like to specify that I am not a doctor. The supplements that I’m using are ones that I have chosen after my own extensive research. I encourage everyone to do their own research. What works for me may not work for anyone else (and I’m still figuring out exactly what works for me). This is simply to share what I am (currently) doing to treat my PCOS. Well, it’s yet another long cycle. I’m currently on cycle day 65. I’m not too frustrated right now, because I have changed up my supplements this month, and it takes awhile for them to kick in. I was going…