Pregnancy

  • Life Updates,  Miscarriage,  Pregnancy

    My D&C Part 1: Before

    This is Part 1 of my D&C story. Parts 2-4 will be published in the following days. This week started out on a wild note, to put it mildly. Monday I had an appointment with my doctor. It was over two weeks since we’d found out our baby no longer had a heartbeat, and I still hadn’t really started the physical miscarriage process yet. I’d had some mild bleeding and cramps off and on for about a week, but nothing else. Actually, let’s back it up to a few days before my appointment. My doctor called me with my second blood work results. The day we learned of our baby’s…

  • Life Updates,  Miscarriage,  Pregnancy

    Our Baby Had A Heartbeat

    This has been the hardest week of my life. And I know it’s not going to get easier anytime soon. We had so much hope. We never thought we’d experience a third loss in a row. On December 18th, we had our first ultrasound. I was so nervous, and we were in the waiting room for over an hour. When we were finally called back, the ultrasound technician was so happy and positive. She was with us during our last loss, and it was obvious how excited for us she was. As the ultrasound began, I held my breath…but quickly exhaled when I saw a big black spot–the gestational sac!…

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    Pregnancy Update: Weeks 5-6

    I’ve been finishing up the semester of school and working my way through finals, so it’s been awhile since I’ve updated. I just turned into my 7th week yesterday, so I figured that now would be a good time to talk symptoms and other things before I forget. I’ll try to continue these updates weekly if I can, but for this post it’ll mostly just be catching up. So, where did I leave off? In my last post I shared about my confirmation appointment and my blood work results. Since then, nothing new has really happened, and I’ve just been counting down the days until the ultrasound. It’s really gone…

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    Still Pregnant

    I went to the doctor yesterday to confirm, and left in tears. My regular doctor wasn’t in, so I saw the PA. She did a urine test and said it was positive, but very faint. So, of course, I immediately started crying because my home tests were dark. I know that there’s a lot that can vary from peestick to peestick, so I got over my initial freak out and tried to stay calm. They ordered a beta and said they’d call tomorrow (they never do). But, alas! They called today! And it seems to be good news. My HCG is 255, and my Progesterone is 19.4. There were phrases…

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    Pregnant Again.

    There are so many couples who go years without ever seeing those two lines. There are so many couple who go years without answers. So many years of trial and error. Years of one failed treatment after another. We who have walked these roads have such an amazing community. There have been many cycles where the lovely people I met through the infertility community have kept me sane and encouraged me. But what happens when one of us finally cross over to the other side? When we finally get our miracle? For the most part, the infertility community is very supportive of those who are able to beat infertility. But…

  • Miscarriage,  Pregnancy

    Clarity About March

    If you’re a new reader, you might not know what happened in March. I’ve linked the posts below, but I’ll also be giving a brief rundown of the events. Posts About March 2017 Ovulation Two Week Wait BFP Is It A Chemical Pregnancy? What happened in March? March 30, 2017 was the first time I saw those two little lines. I did a cute little announcement to let my husband know that I was pregnant, and we celebrated! Unfortunately, our joy was short lived, because two days later I got several negative pregnancy tests. That was pretty devastating, but the events that followed were especially torturous. I made an appointment…

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    I thought it was over…and now it is. (Second Pregnancy/Loss)

    This is the story of what happened during the September cycle. I first suspected that I ovulated around September 12th. My cervical fluid was fertile, then dried up–and once that happened, my boobs began to hurt. I had an appointment ten days later, and told my doctor what I was experiencing. I was still having signs of high progesterone, so she ordered a blood test to see if it could confirm ovulation. The test came back at 19.2, which was the confirmation I was hoping for! I took many pregnancy tests, and they were all negative. I started having some issues with sciatica, which I deal with chronically. I went…

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    I Have No Self-Control (I’m Pregnant!)

    Yesterday I wrote about my two week wait symptoms, and said that I would be testing at 14DPO. Well, it’s 12DPO today…and I tested. And. it. was. POSITIVE!!!!!!!!!!! What???? What?!!! WHAT! That’s literally all I’ve been able to say today. That, and “What the heck” and “I can’t believe it”. Oh my goodness, I really can’t believe it. But it’s there. It doesn’t even seem real. It’s such a weird feeling, and I just can’t believe that it finally happened! I want to document this while it’s still fresh in my mind. So, here’s the story of me finding out that I am PREGNANT! My husband had to run down…